“ I feel stagnant. I know I have a power, but I am not using it. I’d like to be able to use my power”.
At the initial session, I focused on the pain I was having in my right foot. But even during that session, it became clear that emotional issues would be more important. I recall the session beginning with about 15 minutes of meditation, in which Branka explained the Heart Rhythm method simply. This method allowed me to calm very quickly and come into a peaceful frame of mind immediately.
The foot pain, which is probably from slight movement in the metatarsals, went away. It has not returned. During other sessions, now I am unsure which ones, I was reclined on a massage table, as Branka held her hands over different areas, pairing chakras. I could feel warmth, which in my mind I decided seemed similar to Reiki energy (Reiki work I have had in the past, years ago). Issues about my father’s death when I was a young child came up as Branka paused in various areas.
Discussing these memories brought me a sense of relief, and eventually I was able to realize that my current frustrations with poor communication with my own adult daughter were somehow connected to my own past and was able to feel that I could continue to be more openhearted when communicating with my daughter. Also, I was able to let go of my expectations of how that communication SHOULD be, and become more expressive of my care and concern for her without feeling afraid of loss.
This, and more, happened over several sessions, separated by a week or sometimes two weeks. During the time after a session, there was always a feeling of having let go of some block that was holding me back. Now, without me doing anything, the communication with my daughter has become more frequent, more pleasant, and more nurturing to her (I hope) and me.
I no longer feel that her lack of an immediate reply has any meaning in her feelings toward me, and I am easily able to continue to reach out and express myself. I have also been consistent in my previously erratic meditation practice. Looking back, the whole process felt gentle yet there was genuine transformation, which has lasted.